I'm just all sorts of in my head lately.
Things with Kaitlin are, I believe, very well. But it's quite an experience, being in a relationship. We've both been to hell and back, and despite the immsense changes in ourselves since that time, we both find ourselves with walls we never even really acknowledged before. It really makes you look at your own habbits and behaviors. Turns out I'm still neurotic.
We're no longer smoking in the house. Now that Jessica's officially living with us, it seems rude to smoke in here and stink up the apartment with our foul smoke. And we're painting.
We have digital cable. Having not had cable for years now, I think this is amazing. 150 channels with 7 HBO channels, Starz, and Encore. It boggles my mind. I never realized how strange commercials are. I also love the commercial for an antidepressant where one of the listed possible side effects is suicide.
Work is work. It's all part of the game. I've figured out how to play.
Jess and I are going to start coming off our meds next month. We feel it's time.
So I will give no attempt to quit smoking this year. And I'm okay with that. John didn't quit smoking in Peru, the question was answered before I asked it at the airport when he pulled out a 10 carton package (1000 cigarettes) that he'd saved $70 on. We'll continue to support our cancer for awhile longer. It amazes me that I care enough to even want to stop ever. This is a new concept.
I'm going to go have a cigarette.