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Under A Winter Sun

he sewed his eyes shut.. because he is afraid to see

28 December 1984
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We who wore the sign might justly be considered "odd" by the world; yes, even crazy, and dangerous. We were aware or in the process of becoming aware and our striving was directed toward achieving a more and more complete sense of awareness while the striving of the others was a quest aimed at binding their opinions, ideals, duties, their lives and fortunes more and more closely to those of the herd. There, too, was striving, there, too, were power and greatness. But whearas we, who were marked, believed that we represented the will of Nature to something new, to the individualism of the future, the others sought to perpetuate the status quo

~Herman Hesse

slave screams he thinks he knows what he wants
slave screams thinks he has something to say
slave screams he hears but doesn't want to listen
slave screams he's being beat into submission
don't open your eyes you won't like what you see
the devils of truth steal the souls of the free
don't open your eyes take it from me
i have found
you can find
happiness in slavery
slave screams he spends his life learning conformity
slave screams he claims he has his own identity
slave screams he's going to cause the system to fall

slave screams but he's glad to be chained to that wall
don't open your eyes you won't like what you see
the blind have been blessed with security
don't open your eyes take it from me
i have found
you can find
happiness in slavery
i don't know what i am i don't know where i've been
human junk just words and so much skin
stick my hands through the cage of this endless routine
just some flesh caught in this big broken machine

~Nine Inch Nails

well, you hate to watch another tired man
lay down his hand,
like he was giving up the holy game of poker.
and while he talks his dreams to sleep,
you notice there's a highway
that is curling up like smoke above his shoulder.
and now suddenly you look a little older.
suddenly you feel a little older.

Leaning on your window sill
he'll say one day you caused his will
to weaken with your love, your warmth, and your shelter.
And then taking from his wallet
an old schedule of trains, he'll say,
I told you when I came I was a stranger.

I see you in the subway and I see you on the bus
I see you lying down with me, I see you waking up
I see your hand, I see your hair
Your bracelets and your brush
And I call to you, I call to you
But I don't call soft enough.

i'll be your ghost
you'll be a dream
you'll flow through me
i'll disappear

i'll be your ghost
you'll be a dream
you'll flow through me
i'll understand

~armor for sleep
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